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(no subject) [Dec. 23rd, 2010|11:10 pm]
EbonieRose
Okay., so last month I asked for opinions about what to do with the Avenue Sequin Skirt. I bought it on Cyber Monday for $24, and got the matching dress for $48. I bought the skirt in grey/silver and the dress in black, but they sent both in the grey, and I'm not sure if I'm pissed off enough to spend a month waiting for it to be exchanged. I decided it would be a good idea to take a few pictures so everyone could see how things turned out.
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Model details(I know it's a bit of an infodump, but I rarely post OOTDs, so I like to be as detailed as I can when I do.)

Height: 5'4"
Weight: I dunno, 300-something-or-other. My guess is about 320-340 lbs.
Size: 26/28 in pretty much every brand ever.
Bust: 55" (I'm wearing a 44H/I in the photo, but I'm almost certain I need bigger cups.)
Waist: 52" (located at the bottom edge of the red belt)
Hips: 62" (it's all booty, my actual hips are completely straight up and down)
Inseam: 29"
Shoe size: 11D or E. ( Regular width never fit, Wides are 50/50 at best, but men's shoes in a 9.5 or 10 are dead on.)

In short, I like them, but I feel shortchanged on the sequin coverage. The fit is pretty good, though the elastic makes it too big in the waist. 

Also, do you think I stand a chance at being able to exchange the dress in-store, even though it was an online purchase?
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Oh, look, a current post! [Dec. 10th, 2010|07:02 pm]
EbonieRose
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[Current Location |Minden, LA]
[Current Mood |apatheticapathetic]
[Current Music |Sebadoh - Got It | Powered by Last.fm]

In case you've actually been reading this, I've been posting a bunch of older blogs here over the past few weeks. These are remnants from my soon-to-be-deleted MySpace page. I'm hoping to get properly motivated to write an actual blog here, but who knows.
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Stuff, Junk, Things (written May 6, 2010) [Dec. 9th, 2010|09:20 pm]
EbonieRose
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[Current Location |Minden, LA]
[Current Music |Mary J. Blige - Everything]

I know, I know. I haven't posted a blog in about 6 months. And I haven't posted anything worth reading in almost a year. I think I'm just blocked or generally unmotivated to do my usual emo whining about things.

I don't blame Facebook for it, though. For some odd reason, I can't bring myself to do long-form blogging over there like I do here. It's not like you people don't know who I am, but I think I just feel more comfortable with the pretense of anonymity than being able to express my opinion under my actual name where there's no denying that I wrote this. Not to mention that I have 25 friends over here and I'm pushing 100 on Facebook...

...and half of them don't know me in the same way the other half does.

A couple of days ago, I discovered that I had a pretty solid grasp on who I was when I was in college. As a matter of fact, I'm willing to go as far as saying that I fucking LOVED myself and every inch of my fat ass. I knew I was smart, even when I sat there learning new things at every turn.

Then I graduated, and I've slowly gone downhill. As I realized that being smart has fuck-all to do with getting a job, I got more bitter and cynical. Considering I don't hide my emotions well AT ALL, I'm sure that this was quite off-putting to the rare interviewer that I happened to face.

It's really hard to fake confidence when what it was like to actually have it.

So, for those of you who haven't heard, my job will be up in mid-July. I have no fucking clue what I'm going to do. I pay half of the bills in this house, and my aunt is barely coming up with her half as it is.

The way I see it, I have to leave unless a miracle happens between now and August 1st. (I mean, I have an interview Saturday, but it's just an interview.) And by leave, I mean, I have to move back to Minden....to my house....with my other elderly aunt.

At least there's no rent to pay, and we only have basic cable. On the other hand, I still have to get a job, but I can't tell who the hell is actually hiring in Minden. That's most of the reason I moved out to Houston, the classified ads are absolutely no help there. Maybe Careerbuilder and its ilk can actually be useful instead of a fucking dumping ground for scams, headhunters, and spambots.

Then there's dealing with my dad. It's not that there's been a problem so far...at least not since that time in college where he yelled at me for being 5 minutes late when he picked me up. I just feel like I've disappointed him, and to an extent, my mom. At least she had a vague clue of how much I suck at things, he didn't outside of my driving.

I mean, I'm turning 30 this year, fer chrissakes. 30! What the fuck was I supposed to be doing now? I was going to be an assistant buyer for a store by now, and planning to buy a house in the next 5 years. Instead, I'm trying to just keep a damn roof over my head, period.  Hell, last year when I turned 29, I was going to get a tattoo and spend the days between my birthday and Labor Day traveling between here, Minden/Shreveport, Baton Rouge, and Atlanta. Now I can't even afford a bus ticket to my niece's graduation at the end of the month.

Everyone thinks I should just ask my dad for money, but they don't really understand that not wanting to ask him IS NOT A PRIDE ISSUE! ( See two paragraphs up.) My family thinks my dad is rich/well-off, so they expect me to just treat him like a damn ATM whenever I need something. It's not a matter of him having the money(he does), it's a matter of it driving home the point that his daughter has made absolutely nothing of herself after 6 years of college and another 6 years in the "real world" when I'm so obviously filled with so much potential.

Everyone has fucking potential. All that word means is the possibility of something happening that probably won't.
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Just Thinking (written November 17, 2009) [Dec. 8th, 2010|07:17 pm]
EbonieRose
[Current Location |Minden, LA]
[Current Mood |apatheticapathetic]
[Current Music |Sean Wright - Looking Out For You | Powered by Last.fm]

I had a small epiphany yesterday.

I tend to get "burned out" if I'm in a place for 3 years, give or take a few months. It's apparently been happening since I started preschool, the first burnout being when I was 7. It happened again during the second half of 5th grade. It didn't hit when I was in 8th grade, but I think it's because I only spent 2 years in junior high. It cropped up again in 11th grade, and it completely fucked up my GPA because I made straight Cs in 2 subjects that year. When I got to college, it hit me again junior year, and again during senior year #3.

Once I got out of college, I was fine...until now. I've been at my current job for 3 1/2 years, but the burnout started settling in a couple of months ago. I already know I'm leaving there in May, so it's really a non-issue at this point. It's just that whenever I find a new job, no matter what it is, I think it's going to happen again.

I guess, in a way, it's my version of the Seven-Year Itch.
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A Small Dilemma (written July 12, 2009) [Dec. 7th, 2010|10:13 pm]
EbonieRose
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[Current Location |Minden, LA]
[Current Music |Fiona Apple - Window | Powered by Last.fm]

I know I'm supposed to be writing my entry on gender and gender presentation, but I'm unmotivated and pretty damn blocked at the moment.

Anyway....

My aunt got my uncle's insurance check last week. It's around $4,000. She gave me $200, and she gave my other aunt who lives out here $500.  (I think she should have gotten closer to $1,000, but that's just me.)

So, now I have $200, and I'm not sure what to do with it. Here's what I've come up with:

1. Don't even bother spending it.


My aunt and I are splitting the bills, so what's the point of even taking the money if I just have to give it back when the bills come?

2. Go clothes shopping.

With $200, I have a lot of options. I can buy 3 or 4 good pairs of shoes. I can buy 4 or 5 damn good bras. I can buy several items of clothing for work. Or I can combine all of the above.

3. Go somewhere.

$200 is more than enough to pay for a bus ticket to anywhere I want to go, and I'd have a bit of mad money when I get there.

4. Buy random stuff I may or may not need.

This is probably what's going to happen because this week is Coupon Week at Half Price Books. I can get anything I want for 40% off Monday, 30% off Wednesday, 20% off Friday, and 50% off Sunday. I have 4 locations I can go pillage for books, CDs, and anime. Seriously, I'm HPB's bitch.

Then there's all the assorted shit I'd like to get, but know I have no practical reason to own: a PS2, a better digital camera, an mp3 player, a bookshelf, a computer chair, an Ancestry.com account, a shoe organizer to go under my bed, et cetera.

5. Save it for something else.

I have other things I'd like to do sometime in the next 6 months, and I may not be able to afford them when the time comes. I want to get my hair braided for winter, go to the Renaissance Festival, go to the Krewe of Atlas ball in Shreveport, or do some random thing for my birthday.
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If you're in a good mood, DON'T READ THIS. (written May 8, 2009) [Dec. 5th, 2010|10:20 pm]
EbonieRose
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[Current Location |Minden, LA]
[Current Music |Theatre of Hate - Judgement Hymn | Powered by Last.fm]

My uncle died last night at 11:15 pm. I was asleep when it happened, but I woke up when my aunt yelled for me.

He just kind of puttered to a stop, I guess. I figured he wasn't long for this world when my aunt mentioned his heavy breathing when I got home. He hadn't produced any bodily waste all day, and he couldn't keep any food down.

He had liver cancer, but his pancreas and gallbladder were being difficult, and his kidneys were on their way to failure. Basically his entire system of internal organs had gone on strike.

We're planning on the funeral being next Saturday. It's just going to be small since he didn't have many friends, so it's not going to be at the church like last time.

Now, here's the possible good news....

I'll be in Minden for the funeral, but I don't know when I'm coming. I'm leaving Sunday, but the funeral is Saturday morning, and the wake is Friday night. Depending on how crazy things get and how soon I arrive, I may be available for shenanigans and escapades at some point.

I hope it's possible because I have no fucking clue when I'll be back. ..

Once I come back to Houston, I have to begin searching for a second/new job because what I make isn't quite enough to cover what will be my half of the expenses. Well, techincally, what I make is enough to cover my half of the house bills, but I don't get to eat or take the bus to work AT ALL. I need at least another $50 a week to cover that.
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Long Weekend (written March 29, 2009) [Dec. 4th, 2010|06:52 pm]
EbonieRose
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[Current Music |Corinne Bailey Rae - Butterfly | Powered by Last.fm]

So, I hadn't mentioned this earlier, but my uncle went into the hospital 2 weeks ago because he was feeling sick to his stomach. This was after the doctors had diagnosed him with liver cancer and gave him some chemo-ish meds to make it go away. Well, apparently, the medicine didn't do anything but make it worse because now he has a messed up pancreas and some gallstones..

They finally sent him home Friday night for whatever reason, and he's pretty weak. On the bright side, he's eating. The problem is that he has trouble keeping it down. Add to that the fact that he can't eat whatever he wants anymore because the new meds he's on have to be taken on their own. Thus, he can't take his blood pressure pills, which means no more salt.

So, this pretty much puts him out of commission until he gets better, if he does. As a result, we need a Personal Home Care provider. I got drafted into doing it. For those of you who are nurses, PHCs, and general caretaker types, God bless you because I was not cut out for this. I'm doing okay for now, but we haven't done the official interview process with a caseworker yet so that I can get paid to do it. If I get to do it, it'll be nice because I'll probably get an extra $60 or $70 a week. If I get more, fine. If not, fine, but honestly, I don't see myself getting more than 10 hours of work a week. I told my aunt that half of whatever I make goes to her to help out with bills, but I hope she understands that the phone bill I already pay is included, not on top of that.

This is essentially how the next 10-20 years is going to look, I think. I'm just going to go wandering from dying relative to dying relative and live off of them for months at a time, I guess. It's pretty much the one thing I really never wanted to do. I am not a caretaker, babysitter, nurturer, provider, or anything along those lines. I am a selfish bitch who wants to do whatever the hell I want when I want to do it. I'm just sick and tired of living my life on everyone else's terms but mine. I mean, really, am I going to be 50 years old before I can make my own damn decisions without having to answer to someone? I can't even call that "living"; it's a mockery of what life should be.
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Crazy Shite at Work (written March 17, 2009) [Dec. 3rd, 2010|07:13 pm]
EbonieRose
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[Current Music |Muse - Can't Take My Eyes Off of You | Powered by Last.fm]

Ok, so get this shit...

So, last month, the most agitating instructor I'd been dealing with got laid off.  Well, since then, the VP of my department decided to get rid of her rarely-used office and work at home.

I officially have NO SUPERVISION at work!

No one knows when I come or go. No one's breathing down my neck about what I am or am not doing. Yay!

And today, I find out that I'm losing a classroom. For reference, I work at an Oracle software training facility that has three classrooms. The aforementioned VP decided to get rid of it, and let it be converted into a conference room for the sales people. That means I only have to deal with two classes on a full week instead of three. This reduces costs, workloads, and a bunch of other stuff.

The problem, however, arises because the room we're replacing just had all of its CRT monitors replaced with brand-new LCDs from Dell less than 6 weeks ago. The other two classrooms also have relatively new monitors, so it's not a matter of simply swapping out an old one for a new one. I guess if push comes to shove, the 3 year old monitors could be switched out for these new ones.

Meanwhile, I also found out that our lease is up in 2010, a.k.a. next year. Oddly enough, my contract is up in July or August of that year. Depending on when they move, I may or may not be gone when they relocate. With the current state of the economy, I think it's best I stay here for awhile, anyway.
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A Brief Tribute to Black History...Or Not. (written February 24, 2009) [Dec. 2nd, 2010|08:07 pm]
EbonieRose
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The Soup(formerly Talk Soup)'s tribute to VH1 and Black History. Share and enjoy!









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Just a quick note (Written February 5, 2009) [Dec. 1st, 2010|07:52 pm]
EbonieRose
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[Current Location |Minden, LA]
[Current Music |The Donnas - It's on the Rocks]

I have a cold...or it's the flu. Either way, BOO!

I owe people replies on their comments, especially the "come see me" ones. Still up in the air about that. Not gonna think about it right now because I can't think straight.

I've got an Angry McRantypants post about the difference between the "Flavor of Love" and the "Rock of Love" franchises on VH1. I haven't written it yet, it's stumbling about in my stuffy head. Major points I'm planning to cover are:

--Flav's general attitude over the seasons vs. Bret's.
--the alleged/known occupational makeup of the Flavorettes vs. the RockTarts.
-- the resulting season of Charm School that followed.

I dunno why I'm writing it, but at least it'll be out of my head when I do.
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